The feeling when you realize you left your host country 3 months ago.

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.. was the hardest thing to say.

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Exchange is unbeliavable

Have you ever wondered what my exchange year was like? Here is a long but truthful answer. Not written by me, but by another exchange student. So well written and couldn’t be more describing. I just had to repost.

 

Exchange is change.

 

Rapid, brutal, beautiful, hurtful, colourful, amazing, unexpected, overwhelming and most of all constant change. Change in lifestyle, country, language, friends, parents, houses, school, simply everything.

 

Exchange is realizing that everything they told you beforehand is wrong, but also right in a way.

 

Exchange is going from thinking you know who you are, to having no idea who you are anymore to being someone new. But not entirely new. You are still the person you were before but you jumped into that ice cold lake. You know how it feels like to be on your own. Away from home, with no one you really know. And you find out that
you can actually do it.

 

Exchange is thinking. All the time. About everything. Thinking about those strange costumes, the strange food, the strange language. About why you’re here and not back home. About how it’s going to be like once you come back home. How that girl is going to react when you see her again. About who’s hanging out where this weekend. At first who’s inviting you at all. And in the end where you’re supposed to go, when you’re invited to ten different things. About how everybody at home is doing. About how stupid this whole time-zone thing is. Not only because of home, but also because the tv ads for shows keep confusing you.

 

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Thinking about what’s right and what’s wrong. About how stupid or rude you just were to someone without meaning to be. About the point of all this. About the sense of life. About who you want to be, what you want to do. And about when that English essay is due, even though you’re marks don’t count. About whether you should go home after school, or hang out at someone’s place until midnight. Someone you didn’t even know a few months ago. And about what the hell that guy just said.

 

Exchange is people. Those incredibly strange people, who look at you like you’re an alien. Those people who are too afraid to talk to you. And those people who actually talk to you. Those people who know your name, even though you have never met them. Those people, who tell you who to stay away from. Those people who talk about you behind your back, those people who make fun of your country. All those people, who aren’t worth your giving a damn. Those people you ignore.
And those people who invite you to their homes. Who keep you safe. Who become your friends. And that one special person you fall in love with.

 

Exchange is music. New music, weird music, cool music, music you will remember all your life as the soundtrack of your exchange. Music that will make you cry because all those lyrics express exactly how you feel, so far away. Music that will make you feel like you could take on the whole world. And it is music you make. With the most amazing musicians you’ve ever met.

 

Exchange is uncomfortable. It’s feeling out of place, like a fifth wheel. It’s talking to people you don’t like. It’s trying to be nice all the time. It’s bugs.. and bears. It’s cold, freezing cold. It’s homesickness, it’s awkward silence and its feeling guilty because you didn’t talk to someone at home. Or feeling guilty because you missed something because you were talking on Skype.

 

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Exchange is great. It’s feeling the connection between you and your host parents grow. It’s knowing in which cupboard the peanut butter is. It’s meeting people from all over the world. It’s having a place to stay in almost every country of the world.
It’s cooking food from your home country and not messing up. It’s seeing beautiful landscapes that you never knew existed.

 

Exchange is exchange students. The most amazing people in the whole wide world. Those people from everywhere who know exactly how you feel and those people who become your absolute best friends even though you only see most of them 1 or 2 times during your year. The people, who take almost an hour to say their final goodbyes to each other. Those people with the jackets full of pins. All over the world.

 

Exchange is falling in love with this amazing, wild, beautiful country. And with your home country.

 

Exchange is frustrating. Things you can’t do, things you don’t understand. Things you say, that mean the exact opposite of what you meant to say.

 

Exchange is understanding.
Exchange is unbelievable.

 

Exchange is not a year in your life. It’s a life in one year.

 

Exchange is nothing like you expected it to be, and everything you wanted it to be.

 

Exchange is the best year of your life so far. Without a doubt. And it’s also the worst. Without a doubt.

 

Exchange is something you will never forget, something that will always be a part of you. It is something no one back at home will ever truly understand.

 

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Exchange is growing up, realizing that everybody is the same, no matter where they’re from. That there is great people and douche bags everywhere. And that it only depends on you how good or bad your day is going to be. Or the whole year.
And it is realizing that you can be on your own, that you are an independent person. Finally.

 

Exchange is dancing in the rain for no reason, crying without a reason, laughing at the same time. It’s a turmoil of every emotion possible.

 

Exchange is everything. And exchange is something you can’t understand unless you’ve been through it.

Resten av året.

Inte orkar jag sen heller göra månad för månad inlägg… blir för jobbigt!

Men mitt år var fantastiskt och jag ångrar ingenting, jag lärde känna en massa nya människor och en ny kultur och fast det emellanåt var tungt så var det nog bästa året i mitt liv. I början när jag kom hem så satt jag bara och saknade Aussina och alla dit.. men nu har jag fattat att jag ju inte kan leva deras liv när jag är i Finland. Och inte är nu Finland så paha… 😉

Mina kohokohtan av året var bla;

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Då när jag var och snorkla till The Great Barrier Reef. En av dom bästa, om inte den bästa, upplevelsen i Australien!! zoo 142 Nå dendär gången då jag för första gången fick se kengurun.. 🙂 maloolobu 025 Alla gånger vi med porukka for till beachen och alltid åt hot chips efteråt!! k 031 Jag saknar faktist alltid emellanåt mina helt galna host systrar från min första familj. Vi gjorde en massa roligt tillsammans . OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA Beachen. Igen. Där spenderade jag mera tid än jag någonsin förr i mitt liv gjort, och jag älskade det! DSC_1791 September Holidays med bla dessa girls ❤ OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA Poolen och när vi for och simmade med skoluniformen på när skolan ÄNTLIGEN VAR FINITO woop woop aldrig mera skoluniform!DSC_0611 Isabella’s Deb ball  Teebar 567Teebar Rodeon som nog var 2% rodeo och 98% allt annat. Själva roden var hemsk btw, men annors ett fantastiskt veckoslut out in the bushhhh
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Fraser Island. typ, bästa dagen på hela året?
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Typ, bästa veckan på hela året? What happens at schoolies stays at schoolies..
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Pancake Manor.  And Theo.
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Fich and Chips.. that amount of fish and chips and junk food that year hahahah
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Grade 12 Camp.
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Allt det där roliga man är med om med sina nya vänner.
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Skolan och min årskurs in general.
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Bästa minnena är med bästa människorna.
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Last but not least, FORMAL !!!

Jag blir helt tårögd av att titta på dom här bilderna. Utbytesåret var nog det bästa valet i mitt liv. Nu är det bara att vänta på att dom kommer och hälsa på till lilla Finland haha!

Januari

Jag tänker göra en såndän års juttu att man går egenom varje månad, för det verkar roligt 🙂

I Januari sade jag hejdå till alla mina vänner, kompisar, husdjur och familj i Finland. Jag hade fullt upp med att trädda alla. Det var också very emotional times, gotta admit.
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Sedan sade jag ”Hello, nice to meet you” till mina nya kommande vänner, kompisar och min nya familj i Australien. Började Pine rivers State high School. Det var jännä tider och jag levde i någon slags dröm.  HETT var det också!
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Jetlag hade jag också. Jag kommer ihåg hur jag i två veckor vaknade kl. 2 varje natt och inte kunde somna om! haha. Men lycklig var jag och full med iver inför det kommande året som skulle spenderas i AUSTRALIEN! ❤

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Bloggar så att jag kan skriva den underbara rubriken hehe.

Australia. beach. pool. town. humid. p-plates. vallygirl. supre. vegemite. waves. tan. english. queenslander. fans. st.mary’s. schooluniforms. formal. schoolies. hockey. graduation. koalas. kangaroos. sharks. crocodiles. dingos. smalltalk no worries. family maccas. woolies. brissyweekends. sisters. dresses. togs. thongs. adventures. afraid of loneliness. experiences. new people. heat.

vs.

Suomi. vuodenajat. ruisleipä. suomenruotsalaiset, suomalaiset. jääkiekko. tasa-arvo. porot. abiristeily. kirjotukset. lande. koirat. bogy. tupakka. kallt. salkkarit. H&M. musta. risteilyt. nyrkkeily. svenska. koulustressi. snoukka. salmiakki. pulla. fazer. pikkulauantai. lapsuudenystävät. sisu. vapaus. turvallisuus. serkut. perinteet.

Två olika kulturer. Den finska, som jag vuxit upp med och lärt mej leva i.
Den Australienska, som jag fick uppleva och lära mej så mycket som möjligt av under 10månader.

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Australien är 24 gånger Finlands storlek haha

 

Saknad.

Att sitta ensam hemma och tänka på Australien är inte bra. Trots att jag har haft en väldigt väldigt väldigt bra Muse keikka igår natt och en surprisingly bra ”första skoldag”- idag så kan jag ingenting annat än sakna Australien och min familj och mina vänner där, helt otroligt mycket också.

Varför är det så svårt att känna lycka fast allting är så bra?

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No matter how far apart we are we will always be under the same sky ❤